Wait. That is all I ever hear. That or no. We had one good week of situations and then nothing. We haven't seen anything in a couple weeks. I have been busy making things for friends and planning for an I Do BBQ, so that has helped a little bit. But I have to admit, when I sit alone at home, I feel super sad. I feel jealous of those with babies already. I feel sad that we haven't been matched. I definitely feel left out. I feel mad that people don't t want to help us raise money (don't get me wrong, we have a few amazing people that have been super helpful). I hate that I feel we are doing this all on our own.
I hear all the time that we will look back and it will all be worth it. I understand and believe that but that doesn't make this time any less difficult. This has taken way longer than I ever thought. Today has been SIX months since we were home study approved. Other people have been home study approved, matched, and had their babies already. We still have nothing. Some days it is hard to have any hope. I go into the nursery we have put together and just feel sad. We were so excited to put together a nursery since we had never had this much hope before. Now it is just a reminder that we still don't have a baby.
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