Wow, I was not very prepared for the emotional mess that the adoption process would bring out of me. I am always an emotional person, but boy oh boy, this has made it far worse. How can I not get excited at the possibility of finally having a baby in our home? It is really hard when everyone around you is telling you not to get invested each time you present. I don't really know how to be that way. I know I can and do give the situation to God, but I still need to plan how things will go if it does work out. There are lots of plans to make about meeting the expectant mom and being there for the birth. It really doesn't matter what situation it is, I will be planning. I can't help but dream about life with our baby in our lives. How will things go, what will he look like? There is no way around that.
In the meantime, I am trying to keep busy. I have been making all sorts of things for the nursery. Curtains, changing pad covers, arm savers, and changers for the diaper bag. I am really enjoying it. Had to take a little break from the projects to make sure to clean the house and do laundry, but today is project day! I needed to be busy this week. Keeps me from thinking about the situation we are presenting to on Friday. Another boy (funny that we have really only seen boys, lol).
So, I just hope our friends and family can just be excited with us. I know that some want to keep neutral so they don't upset me when things go bad, but that isn't what I want. I want people to be excited and optimistic when we present and then you can be sad with me when we aren't chosen or ecstatic with us when we are! Just be there for us through this process.
